My, my how this fairytale has changed.
Monday, October 26th, 2009when i was a little girl, i dreamed of one day having a huge wedding with the perfect prince charming. and im talking blonde hair, blue eyed prince charming, too. now, im far from that tale. i like the grungy, spiked haired, wild bad boys. ive changed from perfect little miss innocent, to lil boosie badass. i beleive it might have something to do with my mom dying when i was 8, but im not quite sure yet. lately, my world has revolved around sex, drugs, & music…the music, not so bad. the sex & drugs is what i would like to change. i remember when i was about 12, i wouldve never thought about having sex, or doing drugs as “fun”. (excluding ciggs.) but now it just seems like the perfect getaway from it all. ya know? i dont actually know why im blogging about it, but ever since the overdose i has on 10.23.09, it has just been hard for me to get this kinda stuff off my chest. not only is there a world of pain awaiting me outside my front door, but i dissapointed alot of people that day. my dad being one of them. my bestfriend, brittany, still blames herself for what happened. even though, she didnt put a gun to my head & tell me to take the pills. i did it myself, & im still trying to put the pieces back together. i should get some rest for now. goodnightttt.